Missing the Fam…

I am having a I MISS MY FAMILY DAY.  I found out last night that my nephew had a jog-a-thon!  He is only five years old!  He ran 19 laps!  I didn’t even know about it to sponsor him.  Sometimes I wonder what kind of aunt I am to live so far from my nephew and niece.  I love them so much.  I want to not only know about and donate money to this jog-a-thon, but I want to be able to go watch him!  I was so proud of him!  He is growing up so fast!  I guess he was sore today from all the jogging and was limping around!  How cute is that???  I never knew of a little guy to run so much at that age!  He did it for the Lego prize I am guessing, but still, he did it.  I am proud.

And my little sister bought a bra!  Am I allowed to say that?  She would kill me!  But it is true!  Little pink stripes!  I am supposed to take her to do that!  I miss her.  She is going through that weird time in life and I can’t be there to love her and assure her that it is all normal!   I miss my mom who has been overly generous and giving to us.  It is another one of those days where I just want to curl at the end of her bed as she strokes my hair.  I miss Amy.  Wish I could just give her a hug right now.  I don’t even know when the next time I will hug her is. 

Justin is playing sad music, so it is making me in this weird contemplative mood.  I get like this sometimes when I miss my family and friends.  I love people here.  I really do.  It is just hard being so far from people who REALLY know you because they have known you for your WHOLE life, or like my nephew Ethan, he just loves me because I am his aunt.   Isn’t that wonderful?  The love and comfort of a good family?  Yeah, I miss it.  I miss them.

I am so happy to have Justin.  He is so good to me!  He gives the best hugs and I am glad that I can just curl up on his lap as he hugs me, rocks me, and strokes my hair.  It isn’t a mothers touch or a sister’s hug.  But!  It is the hug of my lover!  And that is even better!