Maisie was an easy baby. Everyone would always say that Maisie was so sweet and easy going. I always assumed this was because Justin and I were so easy going (notice I didn’t say sweet). I thought that I was an amazing parent. I would say things like, “You don’t have to change your life just because you have a child!” And we sure didn’t. We still went to bars, stayed out till all hours of the night, Maisie took her little naps wherever we were, she stayed quiet during trips to the restaurant and even on 17 hour plane rides. She was a happy and content baby, even with her little permanent frown! Here’s a picture of her when she was just a couple months old!
Then I had a rude awakening with my second child. As soon as his whole body was out of the womb, he screamed. He screamed for 1 1/2 hours. There was literally NOTHING I could do to calm this poor little guy! He needed to express something and that is what he did! He has been COMPLETELY opposite of Maisie (well, except he does sleep amazingly well, which I am quite thankful for). If anything I feel more confident in my parenting, yet none of my tricks are working! If he isn’t hungry, he isn’t going to be happy nursing, like Maisie always was. He will nurse, but he will grunt his way through it. He wants a quiet and dark room to sleep in! WHAT?!?!? He is seriously high maintenance! People always told me I would get an easy baby and a hard baby. They were right!
I try and try to figure out why he is so upset sometimes. I’ve already cut out gluten, dairy, peanuts, and coffee out of my diet. He is allergic to almost every detergent and perfume, so if anyone holds him, the poor guy gets a rash that literally oozes! It looks quite painful. Poor little buster!
Anyways, this post wasn’t to go off about how my second child screams. It is just that even though I didn’t say it at the time, I think I was crediting myself to how amazing Maisie was as a baby. But me thinking that either means that yes, I was amazing and now I am not OR that it has nothing to do with parenting and all to do with the personality of your kid. Maybe it’s a bit of both. The last few months have EASILY been the hardest few months of my life and I am sure that little buster can sense that.
I love him through the screaming though and it makes me so much more thankful for the smiles and coos that I do get. It only drives me ABSOLUTELY insane when we are trying to get out of the house and Maisie won’t put her shoes and jacket on and I forget to have Maisie go pee in the toilet and Cutler is screaming because he is tired or hot or hungry or who knows why.
So the conclusion to this story is that I love both my kids and I am trying the best I can. They are both so different.
I appreciate that Maisie was an easy baby and has always been considerate and compassionate and kind. She has always been a thinker and is so articulate. She can be very serious, but also very fun and crazy! Maisie has a strong desire for relationships and is not scared to make new friends! She walks right up to other kids in the park with a chipper, “Hola!” hoping to make a new friend. She is very artistic and loves to dance, color, and is already quite picky about what she wears!
I still feel like I am getting to know Cutler, but I can say that I appreciate that he has always expressed himself strongly and won’t back down from what he wants until he gets it! He’s a fighter! I like that as this is something that I am not so strong in. I hope he keeps this characteristic, even if it means life isn’t so easy for me! He is happiest when he is naked or when we are singing to him or when Maisie is making faces and noises at him. I can already tell he is going to be a daddy’s boy. He loves his dad!
I love my kids.