There is seriously something that goes on in the brain where if you KNOW you can’t have something, you want it even more. This is a theme I am seeing from yesterday’s blog post as well. I love you Taco Bell hot sauce!!! I always will!!!! I’m going to have to look into why I am freaking out about the things I can’t have right now. T.V. shows, taco bell hot sauce….  What is wrong with me!?!? Is it ridiculous to say I feel desperate to just have a bean burrito right now? So yeah, seems dumb to write about this on my blog, but it is my ish for the moment. Wanting things I can’t have. And while I’m at it, I’ll also throw in my family and how I can’t have them either right now. That sucks too. But I think at this point, I might take the…

So I just found that Itunes sells the season of The Biggest Loser. Now that I have this information, I am uninterested in buying it. I refuse to buy a show that I can watch for free in the states.  Ok, not true. I did buy Project Runway when I was pregnant.   Enough of this nonsense!

There MUST be a way for me to watch this while in Europe!!!  ANYONE!?!?  Any ideas!?!?  I do love this show and I am feeling a bit of anxiety with the fact that this is out of my hands! Haha, this is what living in another culture can do to you!!!!!!!!!  I’m going crazy and all because I can’t watch extremely obese people lose a ridiculous amount of weight each week! HEEEEEEEEEEELP MEEEEEEE!!!!!!!

I’ve been wanting to go blond for a while now. Well, maybe about a year. And for some reason, I kept listening to other advice (especially by my husband) not to do it! So I stayed with the brown. I’ve been wanting a change and feeling like I’ve been stuck in a rut for so long! Literally wearing the same three pair of pants (one which is completely unwearable now, the other gaining new and bigger holes by the day).  My one pair of “good” jeans is starting to wear thin on the knee and I know it won’t be much longer till there is a nice little hole there. I have two sweatshirts that I trade off every other day. I tell you this not to feel sorry for me as I probably could go out and buy a couple new things, but I am at a fashion crisis…

I usually don’t try to use metaphors or any of that kind of stuff when talking or writing or doing anything really. That’s Justin’s thing. But I needed an excuse to tie in these cute pictures of Maisie in the leaves, so I am going to do it. So yes, it is fall here in Holland!! And as I was pondering these pictures of Maisie in the leaves, it actually did make me think of how this “season” in life has really been about getting rid of the yucky stuff, and praying that good will grow back in place of it. I don’t even know if this works, but just stick with me. As you have maybe read in my previous posts when I was going through my blog crisis (sorry about that by the way, hope I didn’t offend anyone… I’m over it now), I was really coming to…