I got passionate

I had a rough night tonight and called my mom in tears.  My mom suggested in her always lovingly way that I journal my thoughts… because she knows that it is a good way for me to connect with God and connect with what I am feeling. So, I did.  I wrote about all my feelings, fears, and frustrations.  After I got all my feelings out, I decided to read back to some of my previous writings.  I was a bit shocked to find the SAME themes throughout the years.  I am saying, two years ago I was writing the SAME THINGS!!!!  Same frustrations, same fears (that have now become reality), same same same!  It is a bit annoying.    On a different note, Justin is listening to cheesy Christian music right now which totally distracted me from what I was writing.  I have always hated (with a passion) cheesy…

I know I have been blogging a lot, but just bear with me, as I guess I feel like I have a lot to say! Today as I was doing the dishes, I was thinking about how we are all in different places in our journey with God.  I can think back and look at the different places I have been.  Here are some that stand out. First, the judgmental everyone is going to hell stage.  Yes, I really did think that at a point.  I remember being VERY concerned that my sister was ruining her chance to tell some close family members about Jesus because she had a glass of wine with them.  Oh yeah, I really thought that.  I think I even may have cried!!!  During that time, I remember feeling so strongly that it was from God.  Weird, huh?  Another stage is when Justin was working at…

Funk.  It is weird when you are in a total and complete funk and don’t even realize it.  I think I have been in a funk for the last year.  Seriously.  A WHOLE YEAR!  Maybe I am still in it and just don’t realize it yet.   But I do feel like I am happy again. I was talking with my friend Danielle the other day and said, "I finally feel back to normal."  Her response was something like, "Jen, I have heard you say that so many times."  WHAT?!?!  It is true.  I just feel like this year has been so up and down.  A lot of down, but definitely some ups.  Last summer was way up, well until the bad haircut experience.  I am so thankful for grace.  I know I am sounding like Justin now, but seriously, I have been given so much grace this year.  Grace by…

I haven’t posted for a long time!  Truth is I have been doing some thinking about my good old blog.  I guess I will call it a blog break.   I have been on a blog break.  I am honestly sick of the break! If you have been keeping up with my blog, you probably noticed that I deleted my most recent post called, "Cold Hands and Great Books".  I deleted this post because there was some question as to whether or not the books I talked about were appropriate for my blog.  I know that the people who read this are diverse and I never want to offend.  I just want to share my life! My very last post that started this break (and is now deleted) was about two amazing books that I am currently reading.  The first book was written by my good friend/mentor who lives in the…