Tonight I lost my temper with Maisie. She still seemed sad after I had apologized to her, so I asked her what was wrong. She responded, “You talked to me like you weren’t my mommy.” Let’s just say I will try my hardest to never have her say that again. So thankful she can articulate her feelings like that so that I can be a better mom to her. I love my little girl.

Today I watched two grown men sob together on a bench in a square. One man had his head in the other’s lap crying so hard he was shaking. There was a third man standing giving his support with the touch of his hand. Justin and I were sitting in a cafe watching the three men through the big wall sized window. We were talking about what could be wrong. It seemed obvious to me that someone had died. Maybe their mother? Maybe a sister or brother or father? Just when I had it all figured out, two of the men left with their suitcases. They were saying goodbye. I love that we are capable of having such deep friendships/relationships, but it sure makes life difficult when we have to live so far away from the ones we love. Today while walking home from the cafe I was holding Maisie…

The other day I saw this article on a really fun blog that I’ve been reading lately. It encouraged my already opinionated views on breastfeeding in public! Justin took this picture of me breastfeeding my chicken baby on Halloween. He was hungry. There was nowhere to sit. What was a cowgirl to do, but pull down her shirt and feed her chicken baby?

Congratulations to me. I’ve made it! It has now been a bit over one year since we moved to Barcelona. Hardest year in my life by far. Thank God it is done with! When I think of the first year in Barcelona, these are the first things that come to mind. 1. Crying baby who had a horrible oozing rash. 2. Cold, dark, empty apartment. 3. Fights with Justin. 4. Maisie trying to find her way and her place. 5. Loneliness We went back to the states for a month to BREATHE. Although it was extremely busy with one of my best friend’s wedding, we did have a few moments to just be and relax. Not much, but it did happen. We also were able to figure out what was wrong with my poor little Cutler’s skin. I know in my previous post I had said his rash was gone,…

Little buddy has had clear skin for five days now!!! It’s a MIRACLE!!!! Well, it’s also a bit of expensive all natural organic toner purchased from one of my most favorite organic stores in Barcelona, called Granola. I mostly like the store for one of the owners (Laura) that works there and also the delish eggs (which I am allergic to). But they also have great organic fruit, delish corn flakes, lots of non dairy milk options, popcorn kernals, gluten free soy sauce, and lots of other delish things, including the most amazing goat’s cheese. But that’s another story. I am here to write about Cutler’s skin. I just want to say that it is really amazing how different of a child he is when his skin is clear. Every person who has ever stayed with us since he was born (which is just about everyone we know.. not really,…