Feeling down….or not?

I know that I JUST wrote about what a great day I had here, but feeling down was bound to happen sooner than later, right? That is how it always seems to be. Things are going great and BAM! You are sad.

I won’t hold you in suspense any longer for why I am down. Maybe you don’t think it is a big deal, but I do. My sister Amy is having Thanksgiving at her house for the first time ever and my mom and little sister Kylie are there. I’m not. That pretty much sums it up.

Sometimes it is just really hard to be so far away. My niece also had her 2nd birthday this month. I pretty much broke down and cried hysterically because there was no way of being there. I love my family so much. I have missed almost half of my niece’s life. I feel like I don’t even know her. Every time Amy sends me pictures I am literally shocked at how much she has changed!

November really has been a great month. Even though there has been days of sadness and hysterical crying, there has also been days filled with growing in self-awareness and enjoying the city. Mostly I am just thankful for getting out of my crazy depression funk that I have been in for the last few months.

Well, tomorrow is Thanksgiving and I am going to spend it with my favorite people in Paris! The Wilder family and whatever of our staff can come! And of course Justin! It will be a good day! Tomorrow evening Justin has a discussion group at a fun pub and I am going to hang out with my super fun friend Nadine! I love her! We are going to go to the beautiful mall that I talked about before. I will try to take some pictures this time.

Have a wonderful Thanksgiving without me EVERYONE!!!! I will be thankful here spending time with friends in Paris, eating chicken instead of turkey, going to a staff meeting (on Thanksgiving!?!?!), and wandering around an amazing Christmas decorated mall with a good friend. I love Paris. I can’t believe I live here. Thank goodness it is such a wonderful place or I would really FREAK! Ok. I cheered myself up. I am not feeling too down anymore. I am thankful for that too!

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