So I don’t worship good?

I just can’t do it anymore.  I strongly dislike working.  It’s true.  I would say, "hate," but that is a bit of a strong word.  I have always despised going into work.  I guess I should say certain aspects of work, like things I HAVE to do that I don’t necessarily love to do. Now that I live in Paris I work from home.  I have to be better with my time.  It’s hard.  It is really hard!  Today I thought I would get up early and get some of my work done that I need to for our training that is coming up.  It is hard.  It is really hard to motivate myself.  I would like to go to Starbucks to work, but it is SO cold outside!  So of course I found other things to do and before I knew it, I was hungry for lunch.  I heated up some leftover Indian Curry pasta and turned on "Project Runway."  I love Project Runway.  I downloaded it from  ITunes when I was sick to keep me company during my week long sickness.  I only watched one episode today, which I am proud of.

After this wonderful show was over, I decided to REALLY get started on working.  I am working on some sort of tests that help you figure out how you best worship God.  Interesting, but depressing.  There are like 9 different ways to experience God.  After answering each question and scoring myself, I found that I have only one "High" and a LOT of lows, with maybe a couple mediums in there.  When it came to how I actually follow through with these types of worship, I scored ZERO highs.  I guess I don’t worship God very well.  Hmmm.  So, now I am just depressed.  Not really, but it seriously made me exhausted filling out all that stuff.  Normally I like stuff that helps me better figure out who I am, but this was just depressing.  Sorry God.  Really I am.  I do love you, even if I don’t always show you.  I promise. 

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