I just can’t do it anymore. I strongly dislike working. It’s true. I would say, "hate," but that is a bit of a strong word. I have always despised going into work. I guess I should say certain aspects of work, like things I HAVE to do that I don’t necessarily love to do. Now that I live in Paris I work from home. I have to be better with my time. It’s hard. It is really hard! Today I thought I would get up early and get some of my work done that I need to for our training that is coming up. It is hard. It is really hard to motivate myself. I would like to go to Starbucks to work, but it is SO cold outside! So of course I found other things to do and before I knew it, I was hungry for lunch. I heated up some leftover Indian Curry pasta and turned on "Project Runway." I love Project Runway. I downloaded it from ITunes when I was sick to keep me company during my week long sickness. I only watched one episode today, which I am proud of.
After this wonderful show was over, I decided to REALLY get started on working. I am working on some sort of tests that help you figure out how you best worship God. Interesting, but depressing. There are like 9 different ways to experience God. After answering each question and scoring myself, I found that I have only one "High" and a LOT of lows, with maybe a couple mediums in there. When it came to how I actually follow through with these types of worship, I scored ZERO highs. I guess I don’t worship God very well. Hmmm. So, now I am just depressed. Not really, but it seriously made me exhausted filling out all that stuff. Normally I like stuff that helps me better figure out who I am, but this was just depressing. Sorry God. Really I am. I do love you, even if I don’t always show you. I promise.