I had a rough night tonight and called my mom in tears. My mom suggested in her always lovingly way that I journal my thoughts… because she knows that it is a good way for me to connect with God and connect with what I am feeling.
So, I did. I wrote about all my feelings, fears, and frustrations. After I got all my feelings out, I decided to read back to some of my previous writings. I was a bit shocked to find the SAME themes throughout the years. I am saying, two years ago I was writing the SAME THINGS!!!! Same frustrations, same fears (that have now become reality), same same same! It is a bit annoying.
On a different note, Justin is listening to cheesy Christian music right now which totally distracted me from what I was writing. I have always hated (with a passion) cheesy Christian music. Actually, most Christian music just bugs. Come to think of it, I only really like Keith Green and….I can’t think of anyone else right now. My mom (as much as I love the woman) is the one who got me hating on Christian music…and Christian bookstores. Ew ew ew. I think I overdosed on it all as a sixth grader, never to fully recover. It is a good thing we don’t live in the states so I don’t have to go to Christian bookstores with Justin. Who needs them anyways? I mean, how many Bibles does one person need!?!?! And what is up with breath mints that are Christian? Let’s be real about this people.
Well, I would love to stay and give you more random thoughts from Jen Powell….but I need to get to bed.